Cassandra

What comes up when everything quiets down

I’ve always been intrigued by silence.

Not just the absence of noise—but the kind of deep, unsettling quiet that makes you actually sit with yourself. The kind that doesn’t let you run or scroll or talk your way out of the moment. So when I heard about 20 Hours for 20 Talk, something in me said, Yes. (Right after a small voice whispered, Are you sure?)

This event is a 20-hour silent challenge. No phone. No talking. No distractions. Just me, in a 2x2 metre square, surrounded by strangers who are doing the exact same thing.

It’s designed to push your mental limits—and raise money for mental health. Which is something I care about because, quite honestly, if I didn’t—I wouldn’t be here.

I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. Sometimes it’s felt like drowning in slow motion. Other times, like screaming underwater. I know what it’s like to feel completely overwhelmed. I know what it’s like to want out.

So this—this space for reflection, this silent room—is overdue.

I don’t expect it to be easy. But I do think it might be a blessing. A rare pause. A chance to reflect on my own mental health journey, to make space for emotions I haven’t had time (or courage) to fully feel.

I want to know what comes up when everything else quiets down.

That’s why I’m doing this. For myself, yes—but also for anyone who’s ever needed a break from the noise. For anyone who’s felt alone in their mind. For the people who are still here, trying, every damn day.

If you’d like to support me and donate to the cause, I’d be deeply grateful:

https://www.20hoursfor20talk.com.au/fundraiser/cassandrasmith/20-hours-for-20talk–sydney-june-28

Every dollar helps fund 20Talk’s mission to make mental health conversations louder, braver, and more honest.

Thanks for being part of this with me. I’ll see you on the other side of the silence.