Lorri Ellen Music

I've sung and explored wonderful opportunities in my Vocalist journey and met incredible, and pure evil.

Not many survive Septic Shock,

but I walked a foreign but vaguely cloudy path called grief that I feared through unimaginable Trauma and danced with her until she led me to peace, and I chose to not return to the dark and seek out this phenomenon called Joy.

Life battered me until I realised that I had to save me, and that just like in my Coma. People and even those that love you, can't and some even wouldn't fix you if they could because I was cursed and blessed with a heart that does not know how to hate, and how to freeze it shut as I watched one, by one, by one give up, and life goes on and that's okay.

When you realise that you don't actually even try to call anyone for the risk of more loss was now an obstacle of sorts.

In the loneliest years of my rock bottom, she kept hitting.

I took the reigns as I am the owner of my Warrior scars, 

and I found connection in being alone, than with some collective who leave you feeling loneliest with them.

I now honour, nurture and bare that grief because in those moments of my darkest fights, and the broken pieces still a little sharp in a few bumps,

but Grief.

She stayed, she held my hand and she is my safe place to land when the feeling and the healing doesn't look or feel beautiful 

That level of love and loyalty you found and grief smiled, nodded and looked on because she never gave up and held my pain so tenderly until I could.

It's now time all these years for me to quietly lead. My sorrow and longing to be the love I have never had, I hope one day it's sent for me, a pure simple just being with them is the lottery kind of love 

Until then I share my soft, kind, forgiving, resilient, courageous, passionate and creative gentle heart to any passing reason or season, in hopes that some people experience that because we all deserve it. I would hate to know that I could have said more too, that one person who didn't quite hold griefs hand, and they too just stop calling.

Integration, grief, challenge, growth, acceptance, releasing of fear and healing is great but our paths are all different.

nmom both need and want that effortless love, a great love and connection, truth seeking and the purest definition of real uintimacy 

I have wanted to do this for so long, and my numbers reminiscent of my love of Angel Numbers and I am doing this for the destined number they conclude and withdraw as my final tally.

As I begin softly and gently humm the melodies of my very old soul, and this;

My declaration to my memoir in Song, and the journey discovering my 'Voice,' 

beyond the Voice, I hold griefs hand once again and she says this is one I have toeF.

I personally give you my blessings,

andpermission slips to allow yourself joy and peace, love, sandy, grief,